One thing I love telling my clients, perhaps even students is a better word, is “Don’t believe a word I say. Just go and try it for yourself.”
I don’t have any of your answers.
Like you, I am always discovering my own answers, every day.
It is only when we outsource this search for truth to others, when we blindly trust whatever is put in front of us, without question, that we get lost.
What I do have, for some, is the ability to point you in the right direction, and to walk your path with you for awhile, as a guide.
But the answer to all of your questions, I am not.
Those are inside of you, right where they’ve always been.