I felt that what I was doing was deeply wrong, which only made it worse.
I couldn’t see that there was a simple way out, which was to speak.
When I finally started to listen, it hit me like a ton of bricks.
I realized that I had deeply hurt many people that loved me.
Yet still, they wanted to help me, and forgive me. I was very lucky.
Now, you may not have that support. You may never have had it, or, you may have lost it.
But you do have to forgive yourself to move forward. Even with all the support in the world, I still had to forgive myself first, in order to begin recovery.
Whomever you have hurt; whatever lies you have told; whatever money, time, or tears you have cost them, they will be OK.
They will be OK if you make yourself OK. Even if they never help you again.
They still want to know that you got where they were trying to get you.